Mr. Sweetie wants me to take the next 3 months (until Badger is a year, at which point Mr. Sweetie remains under the unexplained, misconceived, and oft-corrected idea that I plan on weaning Badger) and really make a plan for being a doula. I don't know where to start! I feel very scared because he wants me to be more ambitious than I feel up to. I know it's a stupid thing to complain about, but he has a lot more confidence in me than is really warranted. It's intimidating and overwhelming.
Every idea I have, he adds on to it. I wanted to start selling painted wooden letters for nursery decoration -- he "helped" me by brainstorming about making lampshades, drawer-pulls, all sorts of accessories that I did not know how to make... so I got overwhelmed and discouraged and didn't go any further. When I wanted to do a bit of copyediting, he "helped" by trying to make it into a multi-pronged business that involved search engine optimization... now, I barely know what that IS, much less how to do it. So I got overwhelmed and discouraged and didn't go any further.
Now he'd like for me to make a business plan for my doula-ing, but to include child birth education, breastfeeding classes, belly casting, selling stuff online, blogging (hmmm!), and who knows what else. Seems overwhelming and discouraging. See a pattern?
Except I really want to do this. I want to succeed because I feel like this is what I ought to be doing. I'm afraid I'll work hard on this plan and he'll read it and tell me it's not feasible, and that'll be the end of it.